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[Apr. 20th, 2005|09:35 pm] |
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plotting
im plotting
i have so many secret plots going on right now
it amazes me
i cant talk about them until they happen tho
and so ur gonna have to wait
man im so excited
i really wish i would blabber about how excited i am but i cant
cause they are secret plots
i hate keeping exciting secrets
im a good girl
(by the way happy 4.20!... even tho i dont smoke... whatev happy 4.20 anyhow)
but yeah
plotting
ill tell u all the plots later
as for now
get excited with me?
<3 nanna |
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[Apr. 16th, 2005|04:20 pm] |
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hey ya'll
so i dont really remember what i talked about last. i think i was talking about birthday week.
anyhow, i got my hair chopped off for locks of love, i think i said that before. what else is new? hmm im going to my friends's HUGE sweet 16 tonight. u have to get dressy in black and white only so im excited. like really this is gonna be kick ass, ill share pictures with you guys later.
hmm what else....
i get my licence june 22... then dmv on the 23 to get the picture... then camp the 24. im cutting it so close. but ill make it... well i hope. anyhow ive been pretty good with amusing myself all day today cause im kidna stranded at home... and i dont need to leave the house for the party until like 8. so i get to like sit on my ass and do nothing.
i miss everyone from camp so badly.
im almost ready to watch the yearbook again cause i feel like im there. but i wont, i have big plans to play the sims and not cry a river over camp. i mean alot of people are going back.
i will miss the ones who arnt... they all better visit.
so thats pretty much it with me. i got a 61 on a chem test... better than my 43 so im improving and might pass... jsut thought id throw that in there.
hmm one last thing. do beer nuts actually ahve beer in them?? jsut woundering...
love u all,
<3 nan |
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| happy birthday hannah |
[Apr. 6th, 2005|10:50 pm] |
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today was my lovers birthday - miss hannah
i called her, we chatted, i love her i really do. i had jsut woken up from my nap when i decided to call her tho so i think i made it awkward ahha did i hannah? but whatever i love her to peices - they grow up so fast!
yesterday was abbys' birthday. my little tennis pro. shes following her dreams and later on im gonna be like THATS ABBY, I KNOW HER, I LOVE HER, WE ARE TIGHT, when she becomes famous.
dooley birthday was sunday - love her. she got her permit and already hit a mailbox and i love her for it.
tommarow is carolines birthday - i wrote happy birthday caroline on my hand to prepare.
becca's birthday is saturday - i cant believe shes gonna be 16.
kats's and my dads birthday is sunday - love them both and i miss kat so much!
so basically this week is loaded with the birthdays
i love everyone too! hahaha
anyways i just recently became really comfortable with myself and im ready to take on this sunmmer.
ona side note, i cant wait for summer and i can taste it, i miss ervyone so much.
random but this saturday, after early drivers ed, im going to sut off 10 inches of my hair and give it to locks of love... cause im a good person - im actually really proud of myself cause im really gonna do it even tho i hate myself with short hair, i really wanna be a good person and be nice and think of the people who need it.
that was deep but its a thing that im doing and i thought i would fill u in. even tho im not gonna lie, mailing a pony tail in the mail still kinda flips me out....
so since all my LJ friends are ones from camp - ill see u guys there but i wont have my afro
so say goodbye to the FRO!!!
<33nan |
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| THE WORLD IS AT PEACE |
[Mar. 28th, 2005|09:43 pm] |
YES THATS RIGHT
THE WORLD IS AT PEACE
YOU HEARD IT HERE FIRST
THE SUMMER PICTURE IS COMPLETE
ANDREW CAGEAO OF SKATEPARK WILL BE RETURNING TO CAMP
THANK THE HIGH HEAVENS ABOVE!
AND THANKYOU FOR SHARING THIS MOMENT WITH ME!
<3 nannerd |
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| and you thought i was gone |
[Mar. 26th, 2005|04:42 pm] |
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| | Ohio is for Lovers | ] |
P-LEASE! i just remembered i have a LJ. how sweet is that?
i kinda miss camp A LOT
and since im the biggest loser ever, the other day i stayed home nad watched all the weekly's and forum and the cirus and then the yearbook. i was all about the camp. and omg i miss it soo soo much. i just see myself having so much fun and i get so jealous and excited. (jealous cause i feel like everyone is still at camp having fun and they didnt tell me and its some sick joke) (and excited cause holy lord its nearly april and the means may and june and CAMP!)
Its getting so close. I can almost taste it.
anyways theres always something new with me. well really not. but whatev most of the people that care will IM me or soemthing haha.
i love u all very much
<3 - cobula |
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| "its been... three days.... u come around here like u know me... ur stuff - my place..." |
[Feb. 9th, 2005|07:40 pm] |
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i havnt updated in like forever. ahah basically since th last time i had a "whine whine whine its all about me" day.
anyways nothing much is new. im playing catch up alot. ive been in contact with people from camp that i havnt spoken with in what seems like forever and i miss summer so badly. last night i watched all the weekly videos and the video year book. then i cried and refused to talk to any of my school friends or anyone else who did not go to camp. hahaha its kinda post-camp sydrome. im better now. im talking to all yet again.
but omg im so excited for this summer. i cant say it enough but im soooo excited! eeek! i like get so excited thinking about it. hahah watch ill like piss my pants the first day. like really, im gonna sit in the back of the bus on the way to camp so i can easily piss ahhahahah. oh god.
and let me tell u
IF HANNAH AND AMANDA ARE NOT THERE ARE ON THE FIRST DAY OF CAMP IM GONNA FLIP OUT! hahah let me tell you! so be there. i dont care about colege. i dont care if ur susposed to be in freakin australia - BE THERE or im gonna die. hahah and so will u ahhaha
no threats in teneded - just be there damn it
anyways the people im listening to - armor for sleep - are offically my new favorite obbession of a band. before i liked them but now they are all i listen to. kinda sad. but they are really good. my fav song of thiers is wanderers guild. i highly recommend downloading it.
so lifes good. friends - good. school - BLAH. parents - okay. boys - good. cant wait for summer is at a 70% and at 100 i burst.
just to let u kno
i would say its 100 but then i have no room to grow from here to summer. plus there is NOTHING like the night before camp. i never sleep. which kinda screws me over for ever. but its worth it.
once more - hannah and amanda - be there - first day. (others i know will be there... FOR SURE... so dont feel left out... its just that these guys are "uncertain" damn u.... ahhaha)
i miss everyone
-Joanna |
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| i hate my parents |
[Jan. 28th, 2005|09:56 pm] |
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oh my freakin god.
my parents can be so horrible. like its horrible. i dont wanna go into detail about it cause people will think im like "asbused" or whatever (dont worry they dont hit me) but its horrible. its just so bad.
and carolyn dose way too mcuh for me. my friends are like my parents. like my dad dosnt have a job really, so hes home but i only see him at dinner and when i wake up and for the rest of the time we live serperate lives. except for the ocasion when he will drive me seomwhere like the doctor or whatever. and my mom works. she like wakes up at like 4 and gose to work so i dont see her in the morning. and then at night its like i get home and eat dinner with my dad and by the tiem im done, gone, and tucked away upstairs - THEN my mom comes home. normally around 8. and then after she eats she will come and say hi but as all my fellow highschoolers know - the time after dinner is key TV/ phone/ work time and if i take on sweet talking with my mom i could die. and then on the weekends my dad is running errands and i honestly think he has a doubel life. if dosent take 12 hours to run errands. and my mom always has a million things to do. clean, shop, work, swim, meetings... like every second of her day planned. i guess u could call her a work-aholic.
so i never see either of them. lizzy, my sister, is at college. and yah know i didnt really miss her too much before cause i never saw her either (just liek my parents except the ocasional interaction at shcool and car rides and stuff..) and to be frank, i saw lizzy more in a month than my parents combined in a year. and so now that its really hitting me, i miss her. i miss her alot. i dont miss our fights, but now even that time that we would have been together seems presious. and its not like i want attention from my parents. its just that the only 5 misn a day i do talk to them is when they are yelling at me. saying, im fat, i need to do better in school i cant see my friends, i cant go to camp if i dont do this and that, im doing this wrong, i need to do this, and the classic "THIS IS MY HOUSE AND I SAID SO"
so that gets me to where i got pushed off the edge tonight. there is a hockey game that my chior is singing at. i was gonna go and get a ride with carolyn cause she is a saint. and of course she asks if maybe my paretns could pick up and she would drop off. so i figure that will be fine. fair. even. but no! i come home and i am told that i am not alloud to go "because it is thier house and they say so" and that THEY do not want to waist 40 mins of thier day driving to get me and its a SUNDAY of all days (i dont know why 6:00 pm on sunday is special so dont ask... they have nothing to do... i checked the challandar) but NO! cant do it!
so thank god i have my second fmaily to back me up. like you cant even begin to understand how much carolyn dose for me. her father works jsut like my mom and will be waitsing 4 hours of his day on sunday when my parents are doing bullshit. carolyn is one for FOUR teenagers, none of which can drive. and she only has two parentals. u do the math. and so its horrible, HORRIBLE, for ehr to drive us, never the less for us not to be able to at least to HALF. they ahev FOUR kids, we have ONE. its NOT FAIR. my parents are horrible people.
its so bad and terrible of them. and carolyn gose thru so much. shes sucha trooper. im not gonna go into that but i swear to god if her parents get mad at her for this i am moving outta my house and never coming home. my friends are my family. thats all i need. i might need my parents later, but right now all i need is people who give enough about u to just pick u up when u need it. im sorry i wont get my lice3nse for another 4 months. and i really am. if i had it tonight - i would be on my way to philly to see hannah. dead serious.
but to sum it up they can be so mean to me and i mean whose parents encourage u to go and then say ur not aloud or else? i guess alot of parents are like this. but i make it sound less than it is. far less.
lets just hope carolyn can give me a ride home. if not. i dont care. im staying at the freakin ice rink. i give up.
someone can u please take me away? i cant last much longer. god knows what will happen next.
sorry for the venting by the way. ill pull thru.... i always too
still happy on the outside,
Joanna |
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| screw that |
[Jan. 27th, 2005|06:39 pm] |
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i was jsut totally smcked around
im ready
and veyr much turned off ahaha
THANK GOODNESS...
but i still ahve my permit... |
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| "If you want to - i can save u - i can take u away from here..." |
[Jan. 27th, 2005|05:31 pm] |
oh god oh god oh god!
HOLD ME!!!
eveyrthing was going to good. birthday. permit. friends. school (is blah but im okay). and like even boys. but go fucking damn it!!! hannah u gotta know what the fuck im talking about. i dont expect anyone else to catch on. but holy god. this sucks.
its like everything is perfect but then its there -- eating at the back of ur mind. it sjust chopping away at everything u have inside fo u. its like its your time to be fine. to be happy. but its there. you here a song. u see a picture. u close your eyes. u take a breathe. its always there. everything i do. its there.
its so messed up! why cant i move on? who dose this? like really? COME ON!!! it HAS been long enough. GET THE FUCK OVER IT!! but i cant. good golly. arg. whats wrong with me? GET OVER IT!! ahh.
its always around me. its always there. ahhh.
i feel like a .... ass...
let me let it go
please god
oh. i feel so girly. lets not focus on it anymore. EW. i should be bruitally beaten! ahhahaha
so yes u DID read before right
i got my permit
thats chill
ITS HOW I ROLL
((NANNA)) |
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| WHATS TOMMAROW?!?!?!? |
[Jan. 22nd, 2005|08:49 pm] |
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YEAH THATS RIGHT BIZNATCHES!!!
TOMMAROW IS MY BIRTHDAY!!! MY DAY OF BIRTH!!! MY SAAAAAWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET 16!!!!
im soooo excited. my friends are coming over (no cmapies...:-(... tear) and we are going sledding, hot cholcolate, fire, junk food, chinese, movies,, cake, presents, raising mayhem at below zero temps.
yeah people are like "no one is gonna come..." they obviously dont know my friends haha. free food and good times.. they will sled over!! hahaa i love my friends. LOVE THEM!
but omg get this. i couldnt invite any of my guy friends because my parents were all like "NO UR GONNA HAVE SEX" well not exactly liek tthat. but i mean i have known these guys for like years and they like arnt aloud to come over if i have girls over too. HOWEVER if its just me and them alone -- its okay. HOW DOSE THAT MAKE SENSE? like really WHO DOSE THAT?
im jsut scared my boys will be like "joanna and her fmaily hates me" i mean like i go over thier houses but they dont come here for my birthday. liek thats SOO MEAN!! i wanna invtie them... UHHH!! i hate the parentals. they are liek mad crazy and paint this picture of me that makes me seem soo prude! ICK! i hate it when they do this shit.
this was never an issue before. i swear to god. wehn ur older siblings go to colege and ur the last one. THEY HOLD ON FOR THIER LIVES!!
"NO JOANNA! YOU CANT GO OUT! ITS ALMOST 8:30!!" oh my freakin god. they get my angryy...
but never the less im excited for my birthday and having a day with the girls. even tho i love the boys. but my birthday will still be kcik ass because i have the best friends in the universe!! hahahah!
so yeah thats what HAPPENING!
...wish me a happy birthday if u love me!! (watch ill get NO comments. ahhha)
--Joanna |
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